Tuesday, January 10, 2006 @ 2:22 AM
i admit. i'm not the wisest person to talk to, instead, i'm probably the dumbest person anyone could find. but yet- i have this very bad habit of getting myself into other's troubles.
is this good or bad?
the answer is gray.
i don't know. some people say i'm caring; but to put it in an ugly way- i'm just a busybody. meddling into things that are not my problems. and in fact, the truth is, until i got myself into trouble- i never realize what went wrong.
everything started wrong in the first place.
my prayer to God- that He will make me be quick in thinking and slow in speech and actions.
i thank God, that He had made me someone who loves. if it were to be me from the past, i'll probably act like nothing happened. but in situation like these- that's probably the most wise decision.
God- give me wisdom. teach me what to do is the most wise.
i'm saddened, but God, i repent of my ugliness. i want to reach out to you-
but i found myself dropping deeper into the hole so deep.
but at the deepest point- i found Your hand reaching out for mine.
and You picked me up.
thank You.
teach me God, teach me. help me Lord, help me- to be more like You.
i can't live without you.